Apologies

 Hello everyone!         

Sorry I've been MIA! So much has been going on this past month. Between my daughter having to go to the ER for an allergic reaction to later that evening going right back to the ER with my youngest son because he fell near a bon fire and got burned to sickness all throughout my house. It has been chaos the whole month of September. Now September was a rollercoaster month for me, spiritually speaking. Now I have been in and out of church for my whole life as you will know if you have read any of my previous blog posts. By no means am I a "baby Christian" but I absolutely have fallen off the wagon more times than I can count. I'm ashamed of that. I know how wrong it is to turn away from God and sin more just to come running back to the foot of the cross begging and pleading for forgiveness and mercy. With the death of Charlie Kirk this past month, my desire to get my life in order and follow Christ wholeheartedly. Truely and honestly this time. I know the storms and trials and tribulations I may face but I can never go back to sin this time by choice. My marriage has not been the best in the past few years and many know that based on previous blog posts but I am not giving in to the enemy any more. I'm standing my ground and taking back my house, my family, and my marriage. Everything I have belongs to God and I intend to follow Jesus Christ from this point forward in truth. I'm by no means perfect and I may fail many more times but I refuse to give up. A lot of my struggle with my marriage is the feeling of being out of control of the situations that arise. I had to finally decide to stop lurking and checking my husbands downfalls and paying attention to his sin and start worrying about my own salvation. I can't make my husband do right but I can pray and praying is what I've been doing. I had to give my husband to the Lord and stop trying to control and fix everything about him and change everything he is doing wrong. I know that nothing is impossible for God. He can heal all of the brokenness that is in my life and my marriage and even my husband. Other than the fiasco of things going on this past month, the reason I haven't been on here daily is because I have just really been studying my bible and really looking at God's word. I recently have been studying up on the rapture and the tribulation. I know that is a controversial topic today but I'm curious what other people believe. Pre tribulation rapture, mid tribulation rapture, or post tribulation rapture. I haven't fully decided what I believe about it yet but I do believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross and bore all my sins so that I could be forgiven and have access to Heaven one day so long as I stay faithful and follow God's will. That's another question for you. Do you know Jesus as your personal Lord and savior? Have you been born again? It is so important in the present with all that is going on in the world and what is coming to be prepared and know within your heart that you are saved. I am holding on to my salvation at all costs. I'm trying to prepare my house for the last days that are coming. We may not know the hour or the day when Jesus will return but I want to be ready when He comes. I want my house to make it to Heaven all together and not have to experience Hell for eternity. I pray that everyone will think about after reading this. Are you saved? 

Also, I recently watched a movie on Tubi called New World Order. It was definitely a wakeup call for what is to come in the future. If you haven't seen it, I recommend checking it out. I hope you all will forgive me for not keeping up with my daily/weekly devotionals. Life has just been different lately. Maybe I'll get back to it soon. As always thank you for following my blog and my prayers are with anyone who likes my blog and reads it. Talk soon, I hope. 

                                                                                            -Destinee